The Chosen One

Flip and skate away.

"Aku rindu zaman aku PMR dulu."
"Kenapa?"
"Entahlah. Aku rasa dalam banyak-banyak tahun waktu aku bersekolah, aku rasa takde tahun yang dapat beat tahun 2011"
"Kenapa? Sebab kau dapat A lurus dalam PMR ke?"
"Tak jugak."
"Ke kau teringat waktu kau tertangkap tidur dalam kelas Cikgu Izham tengah ajar peta Malaysia? Or kau rindu nak makan senyap-senyap dalam kelas?"
*geleng*
"Emmm ke kau rindu nak gaduh ngan mamat sebelah yg perangai senget suka kutuk kau dalam kelas? Err yang bila dia kecik hati ngan kau, dia jarakkan meja 18cm jauh? Sampai ustazah tegur pun dia buat taktau, nak kau jugak mintak maaf? BHAHAHA"

TOKK!

"Aiyok. Sakit lah makcik!"
"Kau merepek je banyak" *jeling*
"Actually, semua tu aku rindu. Rindu sangat sangat tapi bukan tu yang aku fikirkan."
"Jadi apa?"


"Aku rindu jadi diri aku sendiri........"




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People say, people changed and things go wrong.
In fact, not only people who changed but surroundings did well.

TETT TETT!


That's not what am I going to say.
Somehow.. for a while, I'm lack of ideas on how to spill out things that made my mind crowded.
I think it is just the matter of words chosen.
But...
I can feel it quite hard to deliver.


*sigh*


I took almost an hour to think of the words that I should use.
Finally, I decided to say something.



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Adakalanya susah kan nak jadi diri sendiri?

Susah bila semua orang expect tinggi sangat sampai kita terpaksa jadi orang lain.. Cuma disebabkan nak jaga hati orang-orang sekeliling.

Apa?
Kau ingat mcm makan sepotong kek sambil baring atas katil yang penuh dengan bunga ros ke bila
cakap

"tak payah nak jadi hipokrit la, kau adalah kau. Bukan dyorang"

?

*Andai kau faham ayat aku yang berangkai rangkai tu*

Memang, it shouldn't be hard to pretend like you are somebody else when you can actually be yourself.


Cuma.. Ada keadaan jadi sulit bila kau terperangkap dalam satu atau dua situasi. For instance ;

Kau pura pura kuat depan semua orang bila musibah datang menimpa kau and family.
Padahal.. Allah je tau hati kau remuk redam masa tu.


Kau pura pura matang bila kena face suasana getir and perah otak macam mana nak pilih jalan yang bijak untuk selesaikan keadaan.
Padahal... Kau nak je nangis kuat kuat depan semua orang and lari jauh jauh tinggalkan apa je benda depan mata kau waktu tu.



Tak kurang jugak bila kau terpaksa berlakon seolah olah macam kau bersedia untuk apa apa kemungkinan and bertindak macam seorang dewasa. Berlagak tenang so that anak-anak buah tak ikut gelabah sama.

Padahal... Kau nak jugak rasa dipimpin, dilindung and bersifat keanak-anakan tak fikirkan apa apa untuk tenangkan perasaan.


Paling parah sekali bila kau terpaksa pujuk diri kau sendiri sedangkan kau selama ni perlukan bahu and telinga orang lain utk temankan kau bila sorang sorang.


Susah kan jadi orang lain bila kau nak sangat jadi diri sendiri dalam keadaan keadaan mcm tu?

Tapi kau abaikan semua perasaan kau sebab kau tahu apa kau buat tu demi kebaikan semua orang.


Benda ni tak berlaku kat semua orang and tak semua orang akan faham selagi tak dapat apa yang kau cuba nak sampaikan.


Jadi kau rasa stress bukan?

Jangan risau kawan :)

Cuma senyum jaa. Even keyboards on your laptop can smile, why not you?

Don't be hesitated to try. It's worth though.

Kenapa?

Okay dengar ni.

Allah, salah satu sifatnya memilih.
Allah pilih kau dalam situasi situasi ni sebab Dia tau takde siapa yang terbaik melainkan kau untuk pikul tanggungjawab tu.
Dia tau you will do your very best sebab Dia pick nama kau :)

Kau yang paling layak doe.
*TAK RASA UNTUNG KE?*
Bayangkan dalam banyak banyak orang, awat kau yang kena?

Jeles jugok ambe.

Padahal.. Kau ni sape je kan? Anak raja pun tak. HAHA.
NO.
Semua orang sama.


Get it?


Okay?

..............

Okay.


Andai kata Allah bagi apa yang kau rasa sekarang ni kat orang yang Dia tau takkan mampu nak tanggung semuanya sorang sorang mcm apa yg kau boleh buat, maka muncullah fenomena manusia berfikiran cetek.

Cetek acane?

Tau cycle?
*angguk*

Tau cycle apa yang wujud?

Stress--> Marah--> Stress--> Marah--> Stress--> Bunuh diri.

Haaaaaaaaaaa

Better Allah kasi kat orang macam kau kan?

Tengok sekarang ni. Kau boleh lagi nak baca entry ni sampai habis sebab aku tau, kau dah lepas fasa kritikal perlawanan antara minda dan emosi kau sebelum dapat sampai sini sekarang ni :)


Jadi, jangan mengeluh okay?

"Allah takkan uji hambaNya dengan sesuatu yang dia takkan mampu"

Apa yang kita perlu buat cuma berdoa diberikan kekuatan and kesabaran untuk melaksanakan sesuatu yang Allah dah utuskan.


Tak kiralah siapa, macam mana and kat mana kau sekarang.


Ingat. Kita ni bukan calang-calang orang.
But, we are the chosen one.

Yakni, yang terpilih dalam kalangan yang terpilih.


*senyum*
*tutup laptop*

Undefined

Some picture is best remained unsaid.

I believe everyone has an experience where we ever be given some sort  this kind of advice

: Something good sometimes gives you harm.

"I'm sorry miss, I can't catch your meaning. Explain further please?"

Okay ehem.

In life, it is proven where there're some things that you thought are good for you but at the end, bad consequences await instead.

So do you understand me now?

*Ahh ni semua poyo*

There's nothing much I filled in this entry but I bet you as a reader could get the message that I wish I would deliver it successfully.


Always bear in mind Allah is a Great Planner.
He plans everything for His every single creations in a beautiful order.


Ones can't grab the sole success if He doesn't allow it to be.
Loves between two people will not forever be together if He doesn't say they are both meant to be.

Well, I believe some simple examples might happened around you and prove the bold sentence above.

We just have to believe in faith where not all things and people belong to us.
No matter how deep you wish they will be yours, if they deserved by somebody else then you will definitely don't have the right to own.

Same goes when you pray to Allah to grant your wishes to succeed with flying colors in every examinations in every stages of educations.
He will give what you wish for immediately if He allows you to achieve and you'll not even if you struggled badly.

But the sentence doesn't finish there.

: You might don't own it now but you will, later. It is just the matter of time.

Allah puts everything in beauty. He will not give something which was written for you if you're not qualify enough to receive.

So, just wait because you will not lose what exactly belongs to you.

That is why in Islam, we are asked for patience.

There will not be insatiable places for those who patient regardless to what they have done to get something that is theirs.

So why must you feel sad if He knows the best?
You don't have the power to know what happened in the future.
In fact, no one can compares His ability in overpowers everything.

Believe and stay strong for what you lost because He promises us the best at last :)



ADIOS.

Move on

Life is like striking for the pins. What happen in the end depends on how your first step does.

"So, what are you doing right now?"
"Nothing. I'm hearing the songs in my phone and keep repeating the playlists. How about you?"
"Well, normally at this time I'll be in the middle of the field and gazing at the stars"
"Interesting! Wait. Are you alone?"

............


Stars are group of dusts in the galaxy. Located along the Milky Way and emit lights when the sun disappear with the help of moon to beautify the nature at night. Wait, I guess they are reflecting light emitted by the sun.

Therefore, that is why they look beautiful every time we see it :)

One day, a friend of mine once told me stars are symbol of hopes.
I rushed to the window and nod my head up.

But, I can't see any glimpse of them.

There were hazes everywhere *sigh*

Then, I asked "why they are hopes?"

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I think let the story stopped here :D

I was once a fanatic of nature.
I loved it when the night came.
I loved the stars until I can actually cry when I was still a little kid because of thinking the stars won't come back when the sky splashing million drops of water.


*raining outside*
*tears drop?*


It was my hobby to glare and stare at the window every single night just to seek for stars and moon.

I will always do the same thing until today perhaps but it's not my luck when it comes to see the brightest star.
Once in a fortnight,
Literally it became my hope to share the same interest with someone on one fine day.



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So the day I reached 18 finally came.
Months after that, I pursue my study in a place where people called it as a garden of knowledge and virtue.

It was amazing to know that you could grab the golden chance to enter the buildings of success surrounded by loads of brilliant people.

I met a lot of human beings with different characters.
Well, I am used to a condition where I have to meet and leave every people that ever came to my life.

It is not easy to find for someone who will stay beside us in every stages of life.

So now I can say that is what happened to me for real.
Maybe I could say I can't even find a true friend because they easily come and easily go.


Or I might be the one who always come and disappear in people's life.


There, I finally found someone who's actually like me *clapped the hands!*


But it is not - exactly.
He knows more than me. While I keep on forgetting every single names of stars.

So he actually reminds me back.
(LOL)


"Stars are symbolic of hopes"

Hence, I get the meaningful phrase.


I was told to believe in something called hopes.


"When everything is going to leave us behind, bear in mind there will always someone at back to stay to support and to pray for you. Just like the stars aren't?"


*Smile*


Yes, it's true they will be there, shine bright like those big hopes.

But, you forgot, they will eventually disappear when the sun rises :')

So I have no other choice than to keep moving myself forward.

We have a lot of things to be fulfilled in our life and we definitely responsible for each of them.
Although the heart wants what it wants.


When the age increases, everything starts to lose. But there is one thing unpredictable.
By hook or by crook, we will give a warm welcome for the upcoming 'present'.

I wonder what brings it on?

Something spelled..

DEATH.

Therefore, just move on to explore while preparing your very best to welcome it.

*stare at window*


Arasso.

Love

"Love is a funny thing" - Jason Mraz

"Love can thaw a frozen heart" - Frozen

I am pretty sure everyone has watch this movie.
Whoever doesnt still have the chance to spend some time for this 3D animation yet, nevermind you'll find one day free for your own sooner :)

You will found no regret for watching this mesmerizing movie.

*put on specs*


Back then, someone asked me..

"What's going on with the list of most watched movies in cinemas?"
"Why people out there keep on talking about Elsa Anna Olaf and so on?"

and one friend of mine even scream out loud,

"What on Earth is this Frozen?"

HAHAHA *evil laugh*

Well, I won't write the plots of the story though.
You can watch it soon or you might have watch this movie many times like what I did, aite?
*wink wink*


To be honest, I cant deny there's a lot of hidden messages brought by the storyline.
Every single characters played their role as well as how the reality goes.

Or maybe I should say, how exactly the life and reality should going on.

Frozen taught us the pure and sacred love is the love between the siblings, not the love between boys and girls like what we see today. Typical love maybe?

Thus, love between the members in a family should be more pure and stronger.
This is the reason why we have to become a sole survivor in narrating our ship in the middle of the sea(life).

Fighting for the sake of your family love.
Not the love based on fakes, imaginations and fairy tales.

For your information, (yea perhaps)

there're only two conditions of ending between a couple of lovers.

1. End up with marriage
2. Stop with both are leaving each others.

So, it is your choice. Pick the best for the sake of your own, people ;')


Well.
I have a special phrase for all of us out here.

"Embrace your love with the love towards The Most Merciful Creator, you will be given a true love where His creations will become the special mediums connecting you and Him"

I am not telling you it is forbidden to fall in love.
In fact, He is the one who creates everything.

But, it's not right to put someone's love higher than Who should be on the top of the list.

Even me myself can't run from this nature.
Constantly, it's growing day by day.


I wish I could say all these things but I know this is not the right time for both you and me.
Well, the thing is, I am afraid it will distance us apart without His blessings which should shower us everyday.

I know you know about my feelings but I wonder how about yours?

Chase our dream and may Allah grant us rahmat. If He gives me a longer life in shaa Allah, He will give the time for us to meet again soon :)


Yeah, fighting. Don't let the orgasm conquers your soul.

p/s: Some people are worth melting for :) <3

*breathe in and out*